I was searching for my "Xun Yi Cao" novel and happened to come across the box where I kept my memories with her. Din managed to find the book though bud found the class fotos taken in sec 3 & 4.

Read the letters that she wrote and look through the things that she made for me... it brings back memories. She blamed herself when we first broke up... bud it shld be my fault and it has always been my fault. I caused her pain and made her went through a whole year of hell. I ignored her...

I have been haunted by my guilt since graduation in sec 4. For the past 3-4 years, I felt miserable, I dunno why but the memories keep coming back to me... I was a jerk, maybe I still am... I hurt the girl who once truly cared for me badly... I cant forgive myself.

About 2 years ago, I tried to apologize... but she told me not to mention the matter again...

I'm sorry...

"How are you so sure that results promises your future"... those were the exact words written in the letter for me... she was right.

So what if I'm 1st/2nd of my diploma... I don't feel happy at all... there are things that I once possessed and now lost. I yearned for it once more, bud I cant get it anymore... I feel lonely and uncared...

Now that she has found someone who truly loves her and care for her, I feel happy for her.

I got a rush to speak of this matter but there was no one whom I can mention it to... so it ends up here. If I dun say it now, I dunno whether I will have the chance to say it again.

I'm sorry... Wish you happiness