finally my intern ending this friday... get to haf abt 1wk+ of holi...

on the day of sch start or the day after got higher maths test... now where got time to revise maths 1-3... intending to drop higher maths... also told my parents dat i dun intend to take it, but they seems quite unhappy wif my decision...

have been thinking alot these dayss... really alot~
getting more and more emo by the day..
sometimes i oso dunno wad im feeling... even right now, i oso dunno wad im feeling... probably juz emo

went to friendster and viewed my friend's profiles.. of course those that are not in my added frens...my secondary mates...

lolss brought back sweet memories bud also some things dat i do not wish to remember..

wonder gladys and hoting still together or not.. they are one pair of funny couple.. went through so much den realise that they like each other... even though their friendster's profile put single, but i think they are still together...

saw xinying's profile, oso single... from there i saw kaisheng's profile oso.. in kaisheng's profle, one of the comments that gladys left was calling him "jie fu"
xinying and gladys are like "jie mei" and if im not wrong, gladys calls xinying "da jie"

when i was studying in tpjc in the first 3 mths, kaisheng, xinying, gladys and hoting came once.. that time i saw them damn close... heard a comment from gladys that hints dat they are together.. bud i din bother abt that.. cuz i believe that i don't like her anymore...

xinying was the gal that i liked for 2 years when i was in secondary... and for those 2 years, i nv spoke to her... i noe that she treats like a normal fren and we will never be together... bud i continued to like her...

as the days go by... i like her even more... everynite, juz the thought of there will be no outcome between us makes me tear...
those days was the most terrible day of my life till now... i juz lived in disappointment and get hurt day by day...

when i went to sec 3, i forced myself to stop thinking abt her and tried to go on wif my life.. i tried to forget everything abt her... and i managed to come out ok..

bud whenever i see her, the feelings will come to me.. bud i will always avoid her...

after viewing her profile, looking at her photos.. memories flow back... even though i think i do not like her as much rite now... but the pain and memories still haunts me... maybe theres still sth inside me bud i dun wish to face it..

sry for this boring post... i dun even think that all these makes any sense...